| Life |
[Sep. 3rd, 2007|03:38 pm] |
i thought moving to wellington was gonna be all sunshine and rainbows in comparison to my auckland situation but i think i may have been wrong in thinking this. peoples (or should i say person) real personalities are coming out and its really fucking annoying. im starting to see what jane has been telling me since i came here about a certain person. but the thing is i am obligated to side with my best friend and ignore what happened and look into the present but its starting to get real annoying and i hate it. i totally understand the situation of rent and shit but ya know not everyone has a steady flow of cash put into their bank account by their parents that always arrives on time and never runs dry. if i had that i wouldnt have to put up with stupid fuckin arguments and shit. i know i have been slack on paying my rent for the last 2 weeks but its not entirely my fault. my dad was the one who didnt put it in on the right day because he is human and forgot. hes not fucking superman. and the incident with the fucking fat, big deal it got put down the drain. all was needed was for me to be told but no that turned into a big fucking deal as per usual. just because i have a fucking penis does not mean i need to be yelled at to get the point across. its not fucking hard all the fucking time so that it drains the fucking blood from my head. enough of that fuck it all. i hate my job and its really starting to piss me off coz of that stupid bitch who is in charge of us. i need a new job and i really hope this nannying one comes through coz its higher pay and the parents are in charge of me and anything is better than the bitch at my work. fuck i think i am getting depressed again. just when i thawt it was all gone it comes back and fucking bites me in the ass. i shouldnt have gone to england...maybe if i had stayed shit would be the way it was back then. jamee and jane would still be in auckland and friends, people wouldnt snob each other when they see them....i still had my best friend the way i did. i fucking miss that the most. it really sux. i havent spent a single day since sometime in 2005 with her and i really hate it. sure i know when i left to go to england i wasnt the best friend in the world putting that stupid bitch sarah before anyone else and i totally regret it but shes doing the same thing to me. its like shes punishing me for what i did but i didnt mean to do it. the thing i miss the fuckin most is just coming home from school and going to either jane or jamees house and just sitting there and chilling out...going up janes god awful fuckin stairs and sitting on her car seat couch, watching random shit on the internet, setting up lj bebo and myspace things with her coz i didnt know what to do and she taught me, smoking and trying to not let her dad know...an going to jamees and going into her garage and listening to blink 182, attempting to play guitar with her and going out looking at washing machines pretending to be married, hanging out every single day both at school and outside of school, going to pizza hutt and expecting free food when she worked, watching her open up the store while i waited for my dad to pick me up after drinking at youngs road....the parties i used to have at my dads when everyone would come and not 3 or 4 people, they were so fucking fun and now they are just a thing of the fucking past. fuck 2007 nothing good has come of this year...just a fuckload of anger and depression. its been so long since my nana died and after that initial 2 year mourning i thought i would become sumwhat normal again but no normal is a fuckin state of mind. i miss her so fucking much..how can you love someone so much but not have the ability to say it to their face? its fuckin unfair. the last thing i told her was that i hated her and now i cant erase that. she was so fucking good to me and i totally understand why she said the things she did the last time i saw her. i was a being a fucking little shit but only after her death did i do anything about it. why did she die? why have they not found a cure for cancer? why? thats the fucking question on everyones fucking lips. the word "why" is a fucking bullshit word. why is she not here to hug me and tell me everything is alrite? i thought she was fucking invincible. she cant just die, i need her so much. she didnt see me turn 18 fuck even fucking 16. she wasnt there when i first had sex to yell at me like everyone else did, she wasnt there to see me go to england, she wasnt there to congratulate me when i passed NCEA 1 and 2, she wasnt there to tell me to stop smoking and making the same mistakes she did, she wasnt there to say that i am making the right desicions in my life and that im going to turn out allrite....and shes not going to see the future things either which is the most frustrating part...the past is bullshit its not important...i want her to see me go and pass uni, go back to england, get married, have kids, the fuckin worx....now all i have is a fucking picture and a memory...im sure she is watching down on me from heaven because there is no way in the fucking world that she went to hell. if there is such a thing as hell but heaven is definatly there. without god though just gates and dead people...life is such a bitch sometimes...fuck it ive had enough of writing and remembering things that hurt so much...i love you jamee (L) and i love you fiona (Fi) coutts(L), nana,best friend and fucking role model...
"American Pie"
A long, long time ago
I can still remember how that music used to
make me smile
And I knew that if I had my chance
I could make those people dance
And maybe they'd be happy for a while
Did you write the book of love
And do you have faith in God above
If the Bible tells you so
Now do you believe in Rock 'n' roll
And can music save your mortal soul
And can you teach me how to dance real slow
Well, I know that you're in love with him
'Cos I saw you dancin' in the gym
You both kicked off your shoes
Man, I dig those rhythm and blues
I was a lonely teenage broncin' buck
With a pink carnation and a pick-up truck
But I knew that I was out of luck
The day the music died
I started singing
Bye, bye, Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee
But the levee was dry
And good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye
Singing this'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die
I met a girl who sang the blues
And I asked her for some happy news
But she just smiled and turned away
I went down to the sacred store
Where I'd heard the music years before
But the man there said the music wouldn't play
Well now, in the streets the children screamed
The lovers cried, and the poets dreamed
But not a word was spoken
Tho church bells all were broken
And the three men I admire the most
The Father, Son and the Holy Ghost
They caught the last train for the coast
The day the music died
We started singin'
Bye, bye, Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee
But the levee was dry
And good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye
Singing this'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die
Bye, bye, Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee
But the levee was dry
And good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye
Singing this'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die
We started singin'
We started singin'
We started singin'
We started singin' |
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| Life |
[Jul. 16th, 2007|08:49 pm] |
Well a lot has happened since i last graced the pages of lj with my presence. Im back from england unfortunately and spent the first 6 months living at home with my dad, debbie (uhhh), tyler (uhhh) and zak (uhhh). I have now moved down to wellington and am living with jamee (yay!), jane (yay!), natalia (yay!), michael, elma, lana and erin... But me jamee natalia and jane are moving out quite soon dunno where dunno when but its gonna happen. I had my first and last day at my "job" today and am very fucked off with it. they said to me that they had a full time postion available for me and when i turned up they decided to tel me that it was only a reliving position so basically a "rain check" job so ive decided "fuck that" and am now unemployed (again) and are gonna do a course and be a doll bludger... nah im gonna go on student benefit and do my degree so at least ill be doing something good with my day. me and nat's decided to do it coz we are bored of being home all day. speaking of nat me and her are having quality bonding time since jamee and jane left us here by ourselves so we hired out transformers (old skool), the new transformers game (from the crappy movie) and pirates of the caribbean 3 and are going to finish them tonight coz we are nerds. well thats my life and kate is coming to visit me in december!!! yay!!! i got brutally shot down and my life kinda sux at the moment so at least i have something to look forward to. peace up yo and keep clean.
spud |
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| Drinkies |
[Jan. 1st, 2007|10:29 pm] |
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Hey guys. now that im home and all that rot i think its about time i caught up on the party scene. so 8pm this friday sound good to everyone? txt me to let me know if ur comin on my 021 just dont ask me questions coz i got no fundage on it. later. |
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| Last Day In England |
[Dec. 19th, 2006|01:37 pm] |
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Well its been a long year but the day has come where i leave this awesome country and travel back to my homeland of New Zealand. Its been a great year and i have met heaps of cool and awesome people. On a fucked off note, you know how i said that i was flatting with this guy John...well he left on sunday to go home right, but he couldnt even be assed saying goodbye to me and sarah because hes a fucking cock but he can still manage to say goodbye to all the non important residential staff and blah blah. dick. but on a better note, i saw The Pogues last night. It was awesome. front row slightly off to the right of the stage, kick ass view. it was a good show but you can tell that shane mcgowan or however you spell his name, has had one too many years on the drugs and alchohol. he cant really sing just sorta mumbles but it was still really good to see. i also cained my ribs on the bar and have bruises but it was well worth it! well we are leaving london in search of a airport in about 2 hours (being 3.30ish) and chilling at the airport untill our flight departs. its a weird feeling at the moment. i dont really know how to describe it. i was really emotional yesterday but i didnt cry and i feel strange like i need to let it out but i cant and its making me feel weird. but oh well i will be coming home in under 46 hours and seeing everyone and just trying to get my head around it all. anyway see you guys very soon. god it feels weird saying that. later |
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| Just An Update |
[Dec. 2nd, 2006|12:32 pm] |
Hey Guys.
Well its the 1st of December, a great day in history. In 18 days, i will be making my way to the airport to fly home after a great year. In 6 days i will be sending home my crap as well as presents and long lasting memories of fun times had by myself in the u of k. In 20 days i will be home safe and sound to see everyone have a meal then the next day, FUCKIN PARTY MAN! AHHH LETS GET PISSED! SWEEET! Just thought ya'll like ta know haha |
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| Shit To Date |
[Oct. 24th, 2006|04:44 pm] |
Hey Guys.
I have time now as the internet is free and i can actually get onto lj without much unneeded hassle so i thought i would do a massive update (sorry for those of you who cannot read, adrian). Anyway....my big summer holiday trip went really well. I had heaps of fun and met some really cool people (mostly lotje). The Reading Festival was the most awesome experience in the entire world with an added positive of spending the weekend with the very sexy kate which rocked. Work continued on as usual with not too many dramas. I had a week's residential sports trip last week to a place called Churchtown (basically the town had a church......thats about it) which was fun as and im really glad i got to go on it. then half term began and we spent the first 2 nights drinking to celebrate Adam and Jen's (good uk friends) engagement which was heaps of fun. found out im going to see New Zealand VS England in the rugby in 2 weeks which is going to be cool as. at this very precise moment i am in Prague, Czech Republic with Jen spending 3 nights here then we migrate like the african swallow carrying a coconut by the husk to Budapest, Hungary. I have officially got 7 weeks left in the UK (including this week) untill i leave to come back home....exciting shit man. fully cannot wait to get home...chill out....have a fag (or 5 after the 26 hour flight) and get drunk with all you mother fuckers haha! anyway im outta here. later
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| Hey Everyone |
[Sep. 28th, 2006|09:14 pm] |
Hey Guys!
Whats crakling? Roxy figured out a way to "hack" into the schools internet block and cancel it so i can actually use live journal and stuff which is cool. Well not much has really been happening...i went to the 2 misfits gigs in London (last thursday) and last night in Bournemouth. The Bournemouth gig was a lot better...less people...more of a show. They were really awesome. They came on....played for an hour and a half....went off....then osaka popstar that has jerry and dez from the misfits in the band and they played for half an hour....then after that i got jerry only's signature on my cigarette packet coz thats all i had on me that wasnt black and yeah..got some really good photos that i will put on ringo so if you guys wanna have a look just go to it i think i sent you guys all emails bout it. theres a stack of photos on it if you have the will and energy to check them out. well im gonna go upload them now...later dayz
Spud |
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[Aug. 11th, 2006|06:09 pm] |
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IM NOT DEAD I WASNT IN LONDON AT THE TIME OF THE POTENTIAL BOMBINGS IM IN SWITZERLAND (and its really beautiful) SO DONT BE SCARED! and if you didnt really care WELL ITS NICE TOO KNOW! |
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| GAP Year To Date |
[Aug. 9th, 2006|10:51 am] |
Well im super bored so i thought i would write about what has happened and occured up to the 8month point of my year away.
* I arrived in the UK on the 3rd of Jan
* I had 2 days of inductions at Reading University where i met Sarah, John and Pina. I also met the lovely Kate Mooney who i adore and she is lovely as hell
* I left for the school on the 5th of Jan
* Very weird feelings running through my body on first impressions of the school and the kids but over time these feelings parted.
* Started work on roughly the 5th of February
* Work work work all year long
* First kid i PROPERLY changed was Liam Mulligan (MULLIGAN!!!!!) much kudos to me!
* Holidays in Ireland with Sarah where we caught up with the lovely Kate. Got sick as fuck.
* Back to work, still sick
* Extremely depressed and homesick and shit is going down at school
* Work work work
* People start to notice that i am actually a GOOD worker and shit settles
* I get accused of dating Roxy
* Roxy Roxy Roxy
* Roxy shit dies down completely much rejoicing
* Holidays with mum and Aimee to London, York (Aimee loves York...), Edinbrogh (or however you spell it), Glasgow, Pisa, Florence, Rome, Dublin (i didnt go)
* Homesick homesick homesick
* Work work work
* Saw the subhumans with Mike and Sarah
* Holidays to London with Sarah
* School trips to Blackpoole, Stoke Mandaville, ran the Mini-Marathon with Luke who is my main man of the running field
* Holidays by myself in Amsterdam, Berlin, Katowice, Athens, Venice, Zurich, Paris, Reading Fesival, my birthday
* Next term trips to Churchtown, Stoke Mandaville (again) and the Misfits (twice!)!
Thats about it really. its very summarised but i cant be assed writing this big bitch of a update and yeah. later |
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